“B.I.N.G.E. = Because I’m Not Good Enough”
I was pondering this morning on the times when I binged and how I used program to work my way past them. I haven’t binged in so long I don’t remember the last time. But I know that I am completely capable of doing so pretty much every moment of every day.
I realized that I needed to face the binge seeing if there is a way to turn it into an opportunity. Maybe ponder the circumstances leading up to it. Besides any physical triggers (that first compulsive bite), were there emotional signs? Spiritual signs? Really sit with it and see if I can identify anything.
Regardless, the way I have found to move forward in recovery is to:
Report to my sponsor
Try to identify something I can learn from the situation
Create an action plan for the next time the same trigger situations arise – they always do
Forgive myself – the hardest on this list
Immediately refocus, recommit, take a deep breath, move forward resting in the Serenity Prayer.